Seeing You By Chance

Seeing You By Chance

Im in a coffee shop, reading my book, glancing up once in a while, soaking up the perfect ambiance of the cafe.  The next time I glance up, I see you walking over to the counter, ordering your coffee, I catch myself staring when your eyes wander around the room. Looking down at my book, trying to read the same line for the ninth time. I couldn't help myself when I looked up again. You take your coffee, heading out the door, while looking around the room once more. You catch my eye. I quickly look down. Feeling my face burn. I hear the door lightly close behind you, thinking to myself how stupid I can be.  Quietly laughing to myself, I sip my caramel latte. I would never see him again, and if I did, I wouldn't do anything about it, Im sure. 

The next day, I take the bus to class. Heading downtown to take the transfer, I struggle with my heavy bag, waiting for it to come. With my music playing lightly in my ears, my foot casually tapping to the beat, I caught something with the corner of my eye. It couldn't possibly be you...no. Your back turned to me, you slightly turn, your hand running through your hair casually as you smile, waiting to cross the street. Im stunned, trying to breathe again as you walk across the street. No way! The second time seeing you, but you never saw me. Funny.

Throughout the whole day I could not concentrate, blowing two midterm tests, my mind wandering elsewhere. I was imagining your eyes, looking straight into mine. I couldn't place what you were thinking about, being awed by the sight of your dark eyes. You walk towards me, the corner of your mouth hinting a smile. I look around me, sorry to take my eyes off you, thinking that you might be looking or walking towards someone else. Seeing no one, I look to you again, backing up slightly, bracing myself for nothing in particular. You're right in front of me now. Sightly taller than me, you look down into my eyes with such intensity, I had to look away, my heart skipping a beat. Your hand comes up lifting my chin, I hesitate, but your hand is still there lightly lifting my chin. You search for my eyes while I feel your other hand coming around to the small of my back. I involuntarily move forward while your hand lightly presses, drawing towards you. How is it that I am feeling so comfortable in your arms? A complete stranger? But no, you don't feel like a stranger to me. I feel that  have known you for the longest time, but only seeing each other for the first. Your dark eyes...still searching...looking for an answer of a question that he had on his mind for the longest time. Your mouth opens slightly, wanting to say the words...something. We stare at one another for a few seconds...twenty one...twenty two...twenty three...finally, you breathlessly say, 'Hi.' I jump, startled to hear your voice. I laugh at myself, feeling my lips stretch into a smile,  quietly saying hi back. Wondering what to do next, you shift towards my right side, standing beside me, still holding my glance. Your arm wraps around my waist, fitting there, like the perfect final puzzle piece. My heart skips a couple times, my hand involuntarily goes to my chest, making sure my heart isn't falling out. You glance around, and looking back at me quickly, your eyes searching once again. You lean forward, towards the side of my face, your face lightly pressing into mine, you whisper into my ear, 'Where have you been?' I shiver when I feel your warm breath on my neck. I sharply inhale, realizing I stopped breathing. Taking a split second to catch my breath, I, breathlessly still, reply, 'It doesn't matter where I was. I'm here now...' You tighten your hold around my waist, maybe as reassurance that I won't disappear, and whisper to me, 'Yes, yes you are.' Pulling back, you look into my eyes again. You walk forward, lightly taking me with you. We walk into step, never taking our eyes off each other. I don't know where you're taking me but all I know is that I never wanted to leave your side. 

Different, yet similar scenes kept replaying in my mind. My friends, bewildered by my dazed looks, stopped interrupting my thoughts knowing that Ill go under this trance once again and many times thereafter. They quietly laugh at me, when they see me laugh or smile to myself. But I don't care, mollified by the thought that they may not feel this way now, but they will get their chance soon enough, or maybe never. I was starting to scare myself, not knowing if Ill ever stop thinking about this person, who I only saw quick glances of. A complete stranger. A person who I may not see again, but I was desperately wishing I will. What if I don't want to stop thinking about him? What does that imply? That I want to meet him? That Im going crazy with these little...fantasies that replay in my mind over and over again? Whatever its does imply, my imagination is running wild at the moment and Im loving every minute of it. 

Thoughts of an Optimist

A good friend of mine told me a few days ago to just chill, and see what happens. Now, this is the second time that I have heard this most simplest of statements, so what does it actually mean? Take more risks? Be more laid back and let things be? He said to do both. 

I have never met the most.. simplistic person before. But I'm glad I have. How refreshing it was to talk to him about taking what seems to be a complicated mess, into just 'taking it easy.' 

As said before, I am a great believer in The Secret. The Laws of Attraction, if you will. I asked him if he ever heard of it, he didn't, which was really surprising because he seemed to radiate this kind of thing. So I told him a little bit about it, all the while thinking about how I can break down the things that seem to be stressing me out these days. I seem to be wanting to find a way out of any situation, in case things got a little sticky. But what's the point in taking to risk at all if you're not going to embrace the full impact of it? To take full responsibility...good or bad? I have been  questioning a lot about the decisions that I have made lately and trust me...I have been telling myself that its the right decision...at the moment, under the circumstances. But I always keep thinking about what could have been or what should have been if I went the other way. 

Why is it that we always think about the negative things of any given situation that hits us? hmm? So pushing away these negative thoughts, I've been starting to think about how every single problem that I think I may have, will turn out okay, that it won't be a total disaster as everyone else wants them to be. Haha and why all the drama? Oh right! Because life wouldn't interesting enough without it. Duh! 

So why not try to be more simplistic? Be more optimistic that things can and will turn out for the better? Try it. And if it doesn't work out, then it didn't. Don't let it hold you down, learn your lesson (get your slap on the wrist), and move on. You will make better choices. I'm sure of it. It does work because the past few days, I don't feel the pang of guilt that I used to feel every time I got up in the morning. The guilt = feeling bad about making (bad) decisions that can hurt me or other people later. But for now, I'm just letting it roll off my shoulders. Saying to myself that I'll deal with it if and when these 'problems' will show up. So I'm getting ready to make more mistakes that can make or break me. Are you? 

I want to experience the simple pleasures in life,

the things that I may not notice at first, 

to others that make no sense at all,

things that can fascinate me...terrify me even, 

without the guilt and the shame,

isn't that what we all want?

August Rush Quote

<--This here, is my favorite quote of all time. It's from the movie August Rush, and the background is Fanshawe Park. 

My Promise

I'm breaking apart,

afraid of not finding 

the pieces again.

 Take care if you find me, 

and I'll promise you, 

  I'll do the same. 

The Secret -- Quotes of Laws of Attraction

100 quotes from "The Secret", Law of attraction

1. We all work with one infinite power

2. The Secret is the Law of Attraction (LOA)

3. Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting

4. We are like magnets - like attract like. You become AND attract what you think

5. Every thought has a frequency. Thoughts send out a magnetic energy

6. People think about what they don't want and attract more of the same

7. Thought = creation. If these thoughts are attached to powerful emotions (good or bad) that speeds the creation

8. You attract your dominant thoughts

9. Those who speak most of illness have illness, those who speak most of prosperity have it..etc..

10. It's not "wishful" thinking.

11. You can't have a universe without the mind entering into it

12. Choose your thoughts carefully .. you are a masterpiece of your life

13. It's OK that thoughts don't manifest into reality immediately (if we saw a picture of an elephant and it instantly appeared, that would be too soon)

14. EVERYTHING in your life you have attracted .. accept that fact .. it's true.

15. Your thoughts cause your feelings

16. We don't need to complicate all the "reasons" behind our emotions. It's much simpler than that. Two categories .. good feelings, bad feelings.

17. Thoughts that bring about good feelings mean you are on the right track. Thoughts that bring about bad feelings means you are not on the right track.

18. Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is in the process of becoming

19. You get exactly what you are FEELING

20. Happy feelings will attract more happy circumstances

21. You can begin feeling whatever you want (even if it's not there).. the universe will correspond to the nature of your song

22. What you focus on with your thought and feeling is what you attract into your experience

23. What you think and what you feel and what actually manifests is ALWAYS a match - no exception

24. Shift your awareness

25. "You create your own universe as you go along" Winston Churchill

26. It's important to feel good ( ( ( (((good))) ) ) )

27. You can change your emotion immediately .. by thinking of something joyful, or singing a song, or remembering a happy experience

28. When you get the hang of this, before you know it you will KNOW you are the creator

29. Life can and should be phenomenal .. and it will be when you consciously apply the Law of Attraction

30. Universe will re-arrange itself accordingly

31. Start by using this sentence for all of your wants: "I'm so happy and grateful now that.... "

32. You don't need to know HOW the universe is going to rearrange itself

33. LOA is simply figuring out for yourself what will generate the positive feelings of having it NOW

34. You might get an inspired thought or idea to help you move towards what you want faster

35. The universe likes SPEED. Don't delay, don't second-guess, don't doubt..

36. When the opportunity or impulse is there .. ACT

37. You will attract everything you require - money, people, connections. . PAY ATTENTION to what's being set in front of you

38. You can start with nothing .. and out of nothing or no way - a WAY will be provided.

39. HOW LONG??? No rules on time .. the more aligned you are with positive feelings the quicker things happen

40. Size is nothing to the universe (unlimited abundance if that's what you wish) We make the rules on size and time

41. No rules according to the universe .. you provide the feelings of having it now and the universe will respond

42. Most people offer the majority of their thought in response to what they are observing (bills in the mail, being late, having bad luck...etc.. )

43. You have to find a different approach to what is through a different vantage point

44. "All that we are is a result of what we have thought" - Buddha

45. What can you do right now to turn your life around?? Gratitude

46. Gratitude will bring more into our lives immediately

47. What we think about and THANK about is what we bring about

48. What are the things you are grateful for?? Feel the gratitude.. focus on what you have right now that you are grateful for

49. Play the picture in your mind - focus on the end result

50. VISUALIZE!!! Rehearse your future

51. VISUALIZE!!! See it, feel it! This is where action begins

52. Feel the joy .. feel the happiness :o)

53. An affirmative thought is 100 times more powerful than a negative one

54. "What this power is, I cannot say. All I know is that it exists." Alexander Graham Bell

55. Our job is not to worry about the "How". The "How" will show up out of the commitment and belief in the "what"

56. The Hows are the domain of the universe. It always knows the quickest, fastest, most harmonious way between you and your dream

57. If you turn it over to the universe, you will be surprised and dazzled by what is delivered .. this is where magic and miracles happen

58. Turn it over to the universe daily.. but it should never be a chore.

59. Feel exhilarated by the whole process .. high, happy, in tune

60. The only difference between people who are really living this way is they have habituated ways of being.

61. They remember to do it all the time

62. Create a Vision Board .. pictures of what you want to attract .. every day look at it and get into the feeling state of already having acquired these wants

63. "Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life's coming attractions. " Albert Einstein

64. Decide what you want .. believe you can have it, believe you deserve it, believe it's possible for you

65. Close your eyes and visualize having what you already want - and the feeling of having it already.

66. Focus on being grateful for what you have already .. enjoy it!! Then release into the universe. The universe will manifest it.

67. "Whatever the mind of man can conceive, it can achieve" W. Clement Stone

68. Set a goal so big that if you achieved it, it would blow your mind.

69. When you have an inspired thought, you must trust it and act on it.

70. How can you become more prosperous?? INTEND IT!!

71. 'Checks are coming in the mail regularly'.. . or change your bank statement to whatever balance you want in there... and get behind the feeling of having it.

72. Life is meant to be abundant in ALL areas...

73. Go for the sense of inner joy and peace then all outside things appear

74. We are the creators of our universe

75. Relationships: Treat yourself the way you want to be treated by others .. love yourself and you will be loved

76. Healthy respect for yourself

77. For those you work with or interact with regularly .. get a notebook and write down positive aspects of each of those people.

78. Write down the things you like most about them (don't expect change from them). Law of attraction will not put you in the same space together if you frequencies don't match

79. When you realize your potential to feel good, you will ask no one to be different in order for you to  feel good.

80. You will free yourself from the cumbersome impossibilities of needing to control the world, your friends, your mate, your children....

81. You are the only one that creates your reality

82. No one else can think or feel for you .. its YOU .. ONLY YOU.

83. Health: thank the universe for your own healing. Laugh, stress free happiness will keep you healthy.

84. Immune system will heal itself

85. Parts of our bodies are replace every day, every week..etc... Within a few years we have a brand new body

86. See yourself living in a new body. Hopeful = recovery. Happy = happier biochemistry. Stress degrades the body.

87. Remove stress from the body and the body regenerates itself. You can heal yourself 

88. Learn to become still .. and take your attention away from what you don't want, and place your attention on what you wish to experience

89. When the voice and vision on the inside become more profound and clear than the opinions on the outside, then you have mastered your life

90. You are not here to try to get the world to be just as you want it. You are here to create the world around you that you choose.

91. And allow the world as others choose to see it, exist as well

92. People think that if everyone knows the power of the LOA there won't be enough to go around .. This is a lie that's been ingrained in us and makes so many greedy.

93. The truth is there is more than enough love, creative ideas, power, joy, happiness to go around.

94. All of this abundance begins to shine through a mind that is aware of it's own infinite nature. There's enough for everyone. See it. Believe it. it will show up for you.

95. So let the variety of your reality thrill you as you choose all the things you want.. get behind the good feelings of all your wants.

96. Write your script. When you see things you don't want, don't think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on the don't wants ... remove your attention from don't wants.. and place them on do wants

97. We are mass energy. Everything is energy. EVERYTHING.

98. Don't define yourself by your body .. it's the infinite being that's connected to everything in the universe.

99. One energy field. Our bodies have distracted us from our energy. We are the infinite field of unfolding possibilities. The creative force.

100. Are your thoughts worthy of you? If not - NOW is the time to change them. You can begin right were you are right now. Nothing matters but this moment and what you are focusing your attention on.

Stand Up To Cancer Manifesto

We used to have such crazy dreams.
The kind of dreams that brought us together, made us not mere mortals, but a movement.

We used to dream we'd get to the moon.
And we were crazy enough, fanatical enough, relentless enough, to get there.

We dreamed we'd split the atom.
Make smallpox and polio whispers from forgotten history books.
Make technology infinite, individual. 
Connect the world.

All the unbelievable and the impossible,
all the can't do and the never will, we overwhelmed them, we overpowered them, we conquered them. 
They said no and we, well, 
We said yes. 
We stood up. 
We stood up and changed the world.

Stand up when everybody else sits down 
Stand up when it's easier to turn away 
Stand up for everyone who can't rise anymore

When the answer seems impossible, stand up
When the dream is right within our reach, stand up
When the powerful refuse your call, stand up

The moment is now and the time has come to stand up.
One out of every two men
One out of every three women
will face these diseases we call cancer.

Our sisters, our brothers, our fathers, our mothers,
our husbands, our wives, our children.
Our very best friends and those we've yet to meet.

One person every minute, one person in a moment gets lost, gets stolen, gets taken away.

We are a tapestry of lives touched and brought together by a terrorist we can actually find. And in the time it's taken to read this, three more Americans have died.

Unforgivable.

This is where the end of cancer begins.

When together we become a force unmistakable.
A movement undeniable.
A light that cannot dim.

When we take our wild impossible dreams
And make them possible
Make them true

When together we rise as one
When we stand up
When we Stand Up To Cancer.

Better Together by Jack Johnson

There is no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard 

And no song that I could sing but I can try for your heart 

And our dreams and they are made out of real things 

Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving 

Love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart  

Like why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it’s so hard? 

It’s not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving 

I’ll tell you one thing, it’s always better when we’re together  



It’s always better when we’re together  

We’ll look at the stars when we’re together  

It’s always better when we’re together 

It’s always better when we’re together  



And all of these moments just might find their way into my dreams tonight 

But I know that they’ll be gone when the morning light sings 

Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see 

That they’ll be gone too, too many things I have to do 

But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene 

I’d be under the impression I was somewhere in between 

With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do 

Or places we got to be we’ll sit beneath the mango tree now 



It’s always better when we’re together  

We’re somewhere in between together  

Well it’s always better when we’re together 

It’s always better when we’re together 



I believe in memories they look so pretty when I sleep 

And when I wake up you look so pretty sleeping next to me

But there is not enough time  

And there is no song I could sing 

And there is no combination of words I could say 

But I will still tell you one thing 

We’re better together

Love<-->Posiitivity

Hey guys, 
Well, this morning, I forgot to turn off my alarm, this song, Gotta Be Somebody by Nickleback woke me up! 

I think these lyrics have a special meaning to me and thought I should post them. These lyrics should also touch others like it has to me, because no one, ABSOLUTELY NO ONE! should be alone, or feel alone! There are so many god damn people in this world and I find it hard to believe that someone can't find someone else to love. You know?! But seriously, no one should excuse themselves from being loved. I find that there are so many people who are around me AND MYSELF trying to do this and frankly, I'm getting sick of it! 

Why is it so goddamn hard for both parties to just go up to each other and say 'Hey! Hows it going?' But no! The human race has to be shy and play coy because thats what everyone is doing and its 'cool' or 'slick'! And I know everyone is scared of getting hurt and feeling like they are not worth it after a break up but people just need to realize that there are so many other people out there! I don't think people should just be fixed on one person, and if it doesn't work out, should laze around feeling so goddamn sorry for themselves! Who is to say that person was the one? You can't move on without him/her? And who is to say you can find another one to love? YOU are saying that! People are stopping themselves short saying, 'Oh, I think I'm done trying.' And wash their hand of the whole thing!

Isn't life about making mistakes? Taking Risks? TO LIVE LIFE FULLY?! For me, I know where my future is going, but Im also keeping myself open to the things that might happen along the way. My philosophy, Live well, Love much, Laugh often, and Imagine Anything. Last night, Sarah was trying to build up my confidence to actually talk or to even dance with a guy, but I just kept waving her off, saying that it'll never happen. But now I realize that I was just afraid of what might happen...afraid of myself of becoming who I am not for a guy who may not interested at all. And I'm sorry Sarah, for waving you off like that, when you were only trying to help.

And also, everyone is saying to be yourself, but what if being yourself is not good enough? That anyone is not interested in see YOU, but the person who they want you to be? When did it change? When did the meaning of love change? How did the circumstance that we put ourselves in have such the biggest impact on things that shouldn't really matter at all? Or did it ever change? Has it always been like this for people? Now and in the past? That they just stay within the lines of what society calls normal and say that they are happy with people who are so wrong for them? 

Why is it so frigging hard for us (People) to get over the hardships in our lives and move on. YES! I know our experiences shape who we are but who is to say that the bad experiences should haunt us the rest of our lives? We should just start slowly seeing yourselves for who we are, to not be afraid of making mistakes and risks, because that what makes a fulfilled life, a happy life. 

As some of you know, I am planning to become a teacher but needed to go another route to get there because of what the people have said to me when I was in elementary school (Grade 8). I have a learning disability, and lucky, they found it early, and helped me find different ways of dealing with it. But what happened that changed my way of thinking of who I am and what I want to become, was....my guidance counselor, principal, some teachers, and my mom by my side had a meeting by the end of the school year (meaning going to high school). Once they sat us down and went through how I was progressing well with the content of the curriculum and went on saying that they believe that i won't succeed in high school because of my disability will 'inhibit' my potential. I looked at them, then my mom and looked down at my hands and shut down. By then, I was thinking about these 'people' who were so good to me during elementary school, telling me that I won't succeed in high school and thereafter. I started to wonder what the point was of them helping me through elementary, and then by the end of it, saying that their work hasn't helped me, that I am a failure, that i have no future because of this disability? WHAT WAS THE FUCKING POINT? This was the turning point in my life because I told myself that I WILL prove to them them that I am worth it, that I can succeed in everything that I put my mind to, and saying that they are full of themselves for saying such a thing to a 14 year old girl. I was always interested in teaching and I thought it can be a perfect opportunity to do the exact opposite of these people have told me. I want to let the children know that THEY ARE WORTH IT! CHILDREN ARE WORTH THE PATIENCE AND CARE BECAUSE THEY ARE THE FUTURE! 

It's so hard to see why people only remember the negative experiences. Why do the negative things that happened to us stick, when the positive things are pushed aside? Why do people focus on the negative? Let me ask you something. DO YOU FEEL GOOD WHEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU SOMETHING NEGATIVE? MAYBE SAYING THAT YOU ARE STUPID, RETARDED? (sorry, I hate using that word but I’m trying to make a point) Doesn’t feel good, does it? We need to focus on the POSITIVE! Can you imagine the difference it would make if you feel good about yourself, and PAYING IT FORWARD? By just saying a friendly word to a colleague, or acknowledging persons strength; how you can brighten or make someone’s day. Can people just make the effort of doing these little things, make the people around them and themselves happy and positive? What a difference our world would be if we just take the initiative to make someone happy, to give children the gift of being self assured so they can succeed, in the early years of life! Can you imagine? 

I CHALLENGE YOU! Now that I got your attention, I challenge you to say something positive to someone, to give a lending hand, to GIVE! GIVE SOMETHING BACK TO THE WORLD IN WHICH WE LIVE IN AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF! Then, notice the change! But, you have to look! Really look! Just don’t wait for a response and wait to get something back. The change can be so subtle, you won’t even notice it but that’s why you have to look! Believe me when I say that you will make a difference in someone’s life if you say something positive. If that one person feels good about themselves because you have said or did something positive, would that one person want to share their happiness? I THINK SO! It will become a chain reaction, of people being happy and focusing on the positive, instead of the negative. Have you seen the movie PAY IT FORWARD? Watch it! Its an amazing example of what can happen if you accept my challenge to just say a friendly word of give a lending hand to someone who needs it, and make someone happy! I don’t see why people want to make the biggest changes in our world when the little changes make the biggest difference. Does it make sense to you? ACCEPT THE CHALLENGE TO MAKE THE BIGGEST DIFFERENCE THAT CAN CHANGE OUR WORLD! Open your mind to the possibilities of what you can do to make you mark! Isn’t that what we want? To make our mark in the world, to show that we have made a difference or a change? Look at what Martin Luther King Jr,, Mother Teresa, Dorothy Day has done! They have left their mark in the world by doing the simplest of actions that a person can make and look at the change they have made. Look at Rosa Parks! Jeeze! She sat at the front of the bus instead of the back and look at the wave of movement that it set upon the whole world! Fulfill you life with mistakes, risks, and learn from them to make a positive chain reaction. I have accepted the challenge long before I wrote this…I have noticed the change, and I want you to experience the immense feeling of triumph and accomplishment of knowing that you are making a difference! Accept it, notice it, embrace it.

Imagine the possibilities…Imagine.